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The nuns knew that Sister Angela Catherine used instruments of penitence. At the time it was a normal practice, but it proves the will of the Servant of God to humiliate herself and let the Lord God grow in her soul.

Angela Catherine often used to do such penitences in the uninhabited rooms of the monastery. Daily she did the pious exercise of the Via Crucis, slowly and scrupulously. She asked for the pictures of the stations in her room in order to pray in front of them when she was ill.

She had obtained the book of prayer called "Orologio della Passione" (The watch of the Passion). She loved to climb every day the "Scala Santa" (Holy Staircase) that was in the monastery.

Every year Sister Angela Catherine want to carry in procession the heavy statue called "Ecce Homo" ("Behold the man", John 19,5) on the Sunday of Passion. It was exposed in in the choir until Good Friday.

This devotion let her share the sufferings of Christ more and more, until she saw Him before her one day. 

He told her: "So far I have been crucified for you, now it's your turn to be on the cross for me". He got out of the Cross, took her heart and placed a cross in it. Then He put her heart back in her chest and said these words: "Until the flesh is healed around your heart, you will have no peace".

After this mystical experience, the Servant of God began to suffer from heart problems. This happened a year before her death. Then she had an even greater fervor, a deeper humility and a burning desire to suffer for God.

There were few people in the community who knew these facts. Sister Angela Catherine prayed both mentally and with body postures. Several times the nuns found her in a very remote room, on her knees, with open arms, motionless. Another time some novices found her in a damp and dark basement, on her knees, with her arms open as on the cross. The priest saw in Angela Catherine what St. John of the Cross writes in the Dark Night and in the spiritual Works that lead the soul to perfect union with God.

The Servant of God said that in this state "... found no company in anything of this world , and it seemed to her, that all the creatures were so far from her, as much as the earth is far from heaven". The confessor referred to the spiritual conduction of the Borgia, precisely the work of the Carmelite reformer, he found there described his sufferings of spirit, as "sensitive appetites" that remain "asleep and mortified", "the clouded intellect and even the dry will".